Happy Labor Day to those who read this and celebrate that holiday!
For me, this part 4 in a series of posts about my weaning off my morphine meds.
Yesterday was a "learning" day for me.
As I won't have as much pain control, I won't be able to do AS much as I was used to. I am NOT, however, discouraged by this fact, which I forgot to face! :)
I happened to go to the track and did my entire workout. Then, after coming home and showering, I proceeded to go to the grocery store for an "entire" shopping trip.
By the time I got home, I felt that familiar burning in my shoulder blades and also in the bottom of my feet. I knew I had overdone it and I still had to make dinner for everyone.
Dinner isn't some gourmet meal that takes me hours, but it did tend to feel that way. I was feeling a bit overwhelmed and came to the following conclusion:
I cannot do more than ONE major physical activity a day. This means that if I do my entire workout, which I will almost every day of the week, I cannot do a full grocery shop. I don't grocery shop but once a week, so that day I will not workout.
Also, I realize I will have to change my housecleaning process to "a room a day" type of thing so that I don't ...1 - try to do the entire thing all in one day and 2 - mix it with my workout and feel absolutely awful. So I am going to set up a schedule for myself and stick to it. A room a day will not hurt me and hopefully it will keep the house reasonably clean "all of the time". We'll see.
The point of my post is this, when I start to feel the warning signs of that familiar ache across my back or my feet and legs burning with pain, I'm going to rest or doing something that forces me to sit and relax.
Simple as that.
Funny, I was thinking that maybe I would find NO PAIN under this morphine "wean". I was hopeful, but not being very realistic, I guess. After all, Fibro is not curable and I will likely have it for life.
All I can do is the best I can do with each day. I have yet to know if this "wean" is actually going to work at all. Time will tell. But I am positive about it and looking forward to continuing it until it becomes impossible. It may be totally possible to get off of the morphine, but I have to realize I will have to change my "busy" ways and replace them with peace and quiet.
Last night's pain was relieved by me sitting in my favorite chair in my bedroom and watching TV for about an hour. The pain went away. But I don't plan on sitting around for my entire life either, so there will be trade offs.
Another day to the good, as a very close friend of mine says to me each day that I "win" over morphine.
Believe me, I am not judging, I DO believe in the use of opiates for Fibro. After all I've been on them for 15 years...but I want to see what I feel without them.
The rest is decided by God....right?
Until next time, my dear Fibro friend.
Happiness, peace and comfort to you...
Mo M.
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