I know for sure, that many of you have either underlying issues that are a result of your Fibro or issues that possibly caused your Fibro. As I mentioned in early posts, for myself, one would be Endometriosis. I also have issue with my lower back and neck. They call it "degenerative disc disease", but there is quite a bit of debate over that name.
Either way, no matter what you call it... : ), it hurts.....just like people who say we have "Fibro-MYLASIA"!? LOL! I love that one.
Anyway, we all know pain. The pain and stiffness in my neck and back had become pretty bad and even the meds that I take specifically FOR pain were really NOT covering it.
So, my pain clinic doctor recommended yet another 5 day course of steroids. I've been down this road before folks. This 5 day fun ride really "ain't" so fun. It actually make my Fibro worse.
One day or two, I had deep pelvic pain. I was jittery INSIDE, but completely weak OUTSIDE. I pushed myself around, cried because of the pelvic pain and basically felt like a "monster". I was starving but nothing really appealed to me except foods which I really cannot eat because of the Fibro and are generally unhealthy.
I also felt "euphoric" at times and when I went to church last evening, I thought I might stand up and start singing a solo. I felt this immense sense of .....WOW'ness.
But believe me, my dear friends, these pills are nothing but sheer poison in tablet form. The doctor (for the last 2 times I've been on this "course of meds") has given me valium, to quite the "voices in my head". Believe me, I was grateful for it.
When I take one of these I usually feel a bit less jittery, yet I feel somewhat more weak, dizzy and really, well, lousy.
Yesterday morning was my last pill. Today, I feel worse than ever. My back is no better (although I should probably exercise) and my neck, well it's still pretty stiff.
Do you know something folks? Our lives can be a chain of suffering and despair if we don't try to distract ourselves as much as we possibly can. Today I'm doing some computer work and job-hunting for my hubby and honestly haven't done much more than throw on a Tshirt and shorts.
These are the days that you do not push. These are the days that you give in to your feelings of fatigue and sickness.
Please make sure that you are taking care of YOU. I've probably said it a million times, but it would be much worse for my family if I was running around TRYING to push myself into doing .....housework, or laundry .... because really no one cares today and I would just be miserable.
If any of you have to take "decadron" or it's generic "dexamethasone", please don't despair. Ask for some generic valium to help you through it. Then, just keep reminding yourself that whatever you are feeling mentally or physically is temporary in nature. You will not feel this way for ever. I know that, even by tomorrow, things will be looking better for me.
Until later.............................
Blessings......................................
Mo M.
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