If I could say one thing to any of you out there right now, it would be, "I feel your pain"...not only in the physical sense but in the emotional sense.
I want this to be a very positive blog, HOWEVER, I also want it to be helpful.
Reality dictates that I be honest and tell you what I'm going through even if it's not the greatest. The past few days I have felt, well, just "down". I feel that my life is stuck in "neutral". I'm not moving forward and I'm not moving in reverse either. I guess I should be grateful for the latter but I'm just lost as to how to move forward.
In one of my earlier posts, I mentioned that if you are able to continue to work and still keep yourself and your family together, then you should do it. It is very important, not only financially, but to keep yourself stimulated.
My problem, at this juncture is that I could think of quite a few things to do but all of them take money at some point. So, my hands are tied to be able to do those things that cost money. Of course, I DO make exercise a big part of my day and I also make reading my bible and typing on here part of my day. I enjoy those things and they don't cost a dime.
There are hobbies I'd love to pursue but they cost money. I love crocheting and I love paper crafts but they cost money.
Now, before I start to get into any self-pity, I have a decent home, food to eat, water to drink, a car to drive and I do have my family, for whom I'm grateful. I just have to think of new and more creative ways to use my time.
When my journey with Fibro began, I was often paralyzed by depression. I don't feel that way now. Now, I feel more "blah", but I AM functional. When I had serious depression, I had trouble getting myself to do ANYTHING at all in the morning, from making breakfast to exercising and even showering. It was a really hard time. I hope that none of you are feeling that way, but KNOW that if you are that depressed, you are NOT alone.
At least now, I am motivated to get going in the morning and do what I need to get out. Please get hope from that...because if you're feeling down, you sometimes feel that it will NEVER end. It does end and you WILL feel better. Life has it's ups and downs. Such a "cliche'" saying, I know. But it's true! You don't stay down forever. You might need to act however so that you get back to the "real you". :)
If you are feeling so emotionally down that you, literally, cannot put one foot in front of the other, please talk to your doctor....and you can also vent on here. Talk to me, talk to a friend, talk to a minister or priest about how you feel.
I remember those days and I am here to tell you that you don't have to feel that way forever. It's not necessary that you feel so depressed that you are immobilized. That is horrible and I know it first hand. You deserve better, my Fibro friend.
So, if you're having a "down" day or few days, or weeks, try to get yourself busy. Better yet, is there anyone that you know or can you ask at church who might need help. Volunteering is a HUGE mood booster and will go a long way to helping you get outside of your "own way". Sometimes, when we are home and have Fibro, we tend to fall into ourselves. DO NOT let that happen. Do not forget that there are people outside that would love to have your help and caring and that you have so much to give!
Help an elderly neighbor. Offer to walk a friend's dog while they're at work. Do something nice for someone else. Whatever it takes to get you out of your own way, is a good thing.
If you can't get past the feeling by doing these things and you can't even get yourself out of bed, then call your doctor. You may have a major depression kicking around and it needs to be treated. YOU are important.
I'm here today to say I've never gone down that particular path again, since being on anti-depressants (for me Cymbalta).
Please share your thoughts if you'd like with me. I'd love to hear from you and nothing that you would say would shock me about this illness.
In the mean time, take care of you. Do something nice for yourself and make sure you are "getting up" and "getting out" once in a while. Better days are ahead!
Blessings......
Mo M.
I want this to be a very positive blog, HOWEVER, I also want it to be helpful.
Reality dictates that I be honest and tell you what I'm going through even if it's not the greatest. The past few days I have felt, well, just "down". I feel that my life is stuck in "neutral". I'm not moving forward and I'm not moving in reverse either. I guess I should be grateful for the latter but I'm just lost as to how to move forward.
In one of my earlier posts, I mentioned that if you are able to continue to work and still keep yourself and your family together, then you should do it. It is very important, not only financially, but to keep yourself stimulated.
My problem, at this juncture is that I could think of quite a few things to do but all of them take money at some point. So, my hands are tied to be able to do those things that cost money. Of course, I DO make exercise a big part of my day and I also make reading my bible and typing on here part of my day. I enjoy those things and they don't cost a dime.
There are hobbies I'd love to pursue but they cost money. I love crocheting and I love paper crafts but they cost money.
Now, before I start to get into any self-pity, I have a decent home, food to eat, water to drink, a car to drive and I do have my family, for whom I'm grateful. I just have to think of new and more creative ways to use my time.
When my journey with Fibro began, I was often paralyzed by depression. I don't feel that way now. Now, I feel more "blah", but I AM functional. When I had serious depression, I had trouble getting myself to do ANYTHING at all in the morning, from making breakfast to exercising and even showering. It was a really hard time. I hope that none of you are feeling that way, but KNOW that if you are that depressed, you are NOT alone.
At least now, I am motivated to get going in the morning and do what I need to get out. Please get hope from that...because if you're feeling down, you sometimes feel that it will NEVER end. It does end and you WILL feel better. Life has it's ups and downs. Such a "cliche'" saying, I know. But it's true! You don't stay down forever. You might need to act however so that you get back to the "real you". :)
If you are feeling so emotionally down that you, literally, cannot put one foot in front of the other, please talk to your doctor....and you can also vent on here. Talk to me, talk to a friend, talk to a minister or priest about how you feel.
I remember those days and I am here to tell you that you don't have to feel that way forever. It's not necessary that you feel so depressed that you are immobilized. That is horrible and I know it first hand. You deserve better, my Fibro friend.
So, if you're having a "down" day or few days, or weeks, try to get yourself busy. Better yet, is there anyone that you know or can you ask at church who might need help. Volunteering is a HUGE mood booster and will go a long way to helping you get outside of your "own way". Sometimes, when we are home and have Fibro, we tend to fall into ourselves. DO NOT let that happen. Do not forget that there are people outside that would love to have your help and caring and that you have so much to give!
Help an elderly neighbor. Offer to walk a friend's dog while they're at work. Do something nice for someone else. Whatever it takes to get you out of your own way, is a good thing.
If you can't get past the feeling by doing these things and you can't even get yourself out of bed, then call your doctor. You may have a major depression kicking around and it needs to be treated. YOU are important.
I'm here today to say I've never gone down that particular path again, since being on anti-depressants (for me Cymbalta).
Please share your thoughts if you'd like with me. I'd love to hear from you and nothing that you would say would shock me about this illness.
In the mean time, take care of you. Do something nice for yourself and make sure you are "getting up" and "getting out" once in a while. Better days are ahead!
Blessings......
Mo M.
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